My Quote for 2006:
Never "for the sake of peace and quiet" deny your own experience or convictions.
-Dag Hammarskjold
I'm going to shake myself up in 2006! I wish the same for you!
Friday, December 30, 2005
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Mia Speaks
Mia Speaks
This morning, I wrote an email to my CoCo and I realized after writing it that part of it was how I felt during the holidays and how I still feel today, so here's today's blog!
This year is the first year, since I lost my Dad on January 15, 1998 (which unfortunately is CoCo's Birthday), while I still miss him every single day, the holiday season has not been overshadowed by those feelings of missing him. I have more peace within now then I've ever had before. On Christmas Eve I went to Church alone, I was early and had some time to myself, before the maddening crowd arrived. I sat in the sanctuary and reflected on all those that are no longer in my life because of death or otherwise. My Grandmother (the real Mother that raised me), My Dad, Judy, Steve Oaks, Bill Honey. . . just to name a few, and those that are not in my life by choice, mine or theirs. What I got from my reflections, is how truly Blessed I have been to have loved so very much and so many! "Better to have Loved and Lost then never to have loved at all!" During those reflections, I even got to a place of "No Regrets" with all that's gone on in the last several years of my life. I don't regret the Passion and Commitment I felt or all that I did to make things better in the world. I only regret that my passion cost me and others so much and that it got lost in a swirl of diminished mental capacities. But, I don't regret feeling all that passion, I don't regret being someone who is willing to March into Hell for someone I love or a cause I believe in. I know where to buy those asbestos boots now!!! If that kind of passion ever shows up for me again, I'll go with it with all my might, with those boots firmly on my feet! So, in my heart, I joyfully celebrate all the opportunities I've had to love and be loved and my hope for 2006 is to be even better about loving and allowing myself to be loved.
Amazing as it is, my true meaning hasn't even arrived yet. My Precious Princess Daughter and her Prince Charming will be in town on January 6 to celebrate, so I still have wonderful moments to look forward to. I may actually become someone who likes to "take" pictures don't think I'm to the point of wanting to have my picture "taken" yet. Maybe next year!
Happy Christmas and the Best New Year Ever!
This morning, I wrote an email to my CoCo and I realized after writing it that part of it was how I felt during the holidays and how I still feel today, so here's today's blog!
This year is the first year, since I lost my Dad on January 15, 1998 (which unfortunately is CoCo's Birthday), while I still miss him every single day, the holiday season has not been overshadowed by those feelings of missing him. I have more peace within now then I've ever had before. On Christmas Eve I went to Church alone, I was early and had some time to myself, before the maddening crowd arrived. I sat in the sanctuary and reflected on all those that are no longer in my life because of death or otherwise. My Grandmother (the real Mother that raised me), My Dad, Judy, Steve Oaks, Bill Honey. . . just to name a few, and those that are not in my life by choice, mine or theirs. What I got from my reflections, is how truly Blessed I have been to have loved so very much and so many! "Better to have Loved and Lost then never to have loved at all!" During those reflections, I even got to a place of "No Regrets" with all that's gone on in the last several years of my life. I don't regret the Passion and Commitment I felt or all that I did to make things better in the world. I only regret that my passion cost me and others so much and that it got lost in a swirl of diminished mental capacities. But, I don't regret feeling all that passion, I don't regret being someone who is willing to March into Hell for someone I love or a cause I believe in. I know where to buy those asbestos boots now!!! If that kind of passion ever shows up for me again, I'll go with it with all my might, with those boots firmly on my feet! So, in my heart, I joyfully celebrate all the opportunities I've had to love and be loved and my hope for 2006 is to be even better about loving and allowing myself to be loved.
Amazing as it is, my true meaning hasn't even arrived yet. My Precious Princess Daughter and her Prince Charming will be in town on January 6 to celebrate, so I still have wonderful moments to look forward to. I may actually become someone who likes to "take" pictures don't think I'm to the point of wanting to have my picture "taken" yet. Maybe next year!
Happy Christmas and the Best New Year Ever!
Monday, December 19, 2005
Mia Speaks
Purple bowls, Purple bowls, Purple bowls, what could ever be better then a Purple bowl, maybe the Purple bowl provider? Yep that's right!
Mia Speaks
Lessons, Lessons and more Lessons. Saturday I spent the morning helping my Mother get ready for a dinner party. For 48 years it was almost impossible for us to stay in the same room together for longer than an hour. Now, she calls me asks for my help, we chat like two school girls and giggle at things that only the two of us understand. If you have a difficult relationship with your Mother, don't wait 48 years to put yourself in her shoes, see what her world "looked" like and then see what you would have done. In other words, take your feelings out of it and try to be a disinterested party to her choices that may have hurt you so much! I'm incredibly lucky, that "Mother/Daughter" friction has never existed between Me and My Precious Princess Daughter, for that I will always be eternally grateful. On Sunday, again spending time with my Mother, while alone in the car, out of nowhere I asked my Mother if she had any regrets, what came next, I never thought I'd hear but, always hoped I would! She said "I wish I would have been nicer to Your Daddy!" I said, "Was he nice to you?" She said, "Yes." I said well, "all you have to do to get rid of that regret is to ask him for forgiveness." She looked at me like I had lost my mind (my Dad passed away in 1998). I said he'll hear you, he'll forgive you and you will be rid of that regret. After a few minutes of total silence, she looked at me, smiled and looked like she was years younger. My next question, "Is there anything you haven't done that you want to do?" Her answer, "No!" I was very happy to hear that. So, if you need forgiveness, ask for it! Clean it up now! You will feel better, look younger, be more receptive to giving forgiven, don't carry that garbage with you.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Mia Speaks
Mia Speaks
Well, ok, I'll blog! I've so enjoyed reading the posts on "Under A Santa's Moon" and "Love Them Anyway" I hope I can rise to that level.
Today, December 14, 2005! I'm a bit weepy. The weather is nasty, yesterday was a very trying work day and the holiday spirit hasn't hit me yet. So, I'll get move involved in blogging on a better day.
Well, ok, I'll blog! I've so enjoyed reading the posts on "Under A Santa's Moon" and "Love Them Anyway" I hope I can rise to that level.
Today, December 14, 2005! I'm a bit weepy. The weather is nasty, yesterday was a very trying work day and the holiday spirit hasn't hit me yet. So, I'll get move involved in blogging on a better day.
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